How do you know if someone is keen on you? If it's a former love, a potential love or just the mad crazy guy from down the street... There are some you just wish would go away, as your interest in them is purely friendship even though you know they want more. Others, you feel the attraction each time you see them and wonder if it anything will come of it. But then there's the former ones... the one who your heart still burns for, and if ever they came back into your life, you would seriously consider getting back together with him.
So is it intuition that makes you think there is a mutuality in feelings with a potential love or former love or is it curiosity? For me and I'm sure it's the same for many other women, I feel my intuition tells me feelings are there...
I won't lie... I still send messages to my American lover probably once a week or fortnight. I rarely hear back, but I'm OK with that, because I know that he is trying to prove to his family that he is dedicated to them... he is regaining their trust after they found out about me. But my intuition tells me that he thinks of me every day, and I even have little pieces of evidence that he keeps tabs on me too. But is he keeping tabs on me for curiosity's sake or because he genuinely misses me and still needs to have me, in the smallest way, a part of his life? I don't know, but my intuition tells me that my name still comes up in conversations/arguments he has with his family or there is still some insecurity about my presence.
Then there is the potential love... I met him about 16 months ago at a property I went to. We'd been through the same hardships with divorce and had a fairly long chat about it at the time. Now, I generally don't see people out of the course of writing their homes up, but I keep bumping into this guy in the most unusual places, and, besides the supermarket, I don't think we've been in the same suburb twice. He's always willing to stop for a chat... I've seen him jogging in Black Rock, buying a smoothie in Hampton, on the job in Mentone and funnily enough, tonight, I saw him through the window having dinner in Brighton with a couple (he was without partner... unless she was on a bathroom break) at one of my favourite restaurants. His face lit up when he saw me, but as the gentleman he is, he smiled mouthed through the window 'how are you?' and I asked him if he was well, and he nodded, gave his lovely smile, waved goodbye and continued with the conversation he had with his dinner party. For some reason, I just feel lucky that I keep bumping into him and I am in no rush for anything to happen, as I feel one day, it just may be...
As for the others... my heart knows what it wants, and my mind knows what I deserve. And I have to trust my heart and my head... if it doesn't feel right, I say 'No' and I say 'No' often, but most don't listen. Their incessant ignorance for my wishes just tell me that they aren't right for me and only have their own interests at heart, not mine. That's my strong intuition at it's best! Men are curious souls... they explore, tempt, do everything in their power just to find out what all the fuss is about, but they can't see when women are putting up the stop signals and have no idea how to respect a woman's wishes. They keep pushing till they get what they want.
So I guess, if women are from Venus, and men are from Mars, then women go with their intuition, their gut feeling always, where men often just go with their curiosity to find out about the unknown. Frustrating, isn't it?
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